Marina Judenich

- What it - is bad?
- Yes is not present, not badly, it is not good, simple - all corresponds also. However,
More likely probably it is good, here not to me to judge, I after all earlier at all
Reflected on the God.
- And now?
- And now here also I do not know even, - Poles did not dissemble In the last
Lives it never were conscious or as it is accepted to speak still,
The militant atheist, simply rational materialistic warehouse of its mind,
All education received by it and formation did not promote reflexions about
Belief and its philosophical and moral components is faster, it was simply
The faithless person, not inclined to recognise presence at installed certain
Not subject to reason of the modern civilised person of force, and that
More сообразовывать with it the vital positions. Now all imperceptible
Almost in the image for it started to vary. Even more often it caught itself(himself) that
Mentally addresses to the God, however it was not still the realised reference,
More likely the mention of name Господня, and more often in vain is simple. Probably,
Its subconsciousness such here pushed in the formal verbal image consciousness
To necessity to rethink all occurred to it now, and in general all
Its previous life, having addressed for the help and a pardon to the Lord.
Probably, it was and so but while Poles was not absolutely ready yet
To realise and accept (or not to accept) it. Now, the it is more not time was
For abstract reflexions - they have crossed a threshold of a tiny premise,
Dimly shined - in it there was only one small window, and that almost
Completely filled up with piles of any books and brochures. One half
Church little shop (and it was it) from another, fenced off
Low narrow barrier - a counter on which books have been spread out, cards
And photos, there was a small metal box with an inscription in Russian: “For
Donations ”. A church smell - a smell of wax candles and лампадного oils
It was stirred here with a library smell - smelt as old books, a dusty paper
And simultaneously - from bright cards a fresh typographical paint For some reason
This smell has seemed Полякову is pleasant
Behind a counter something read, far having carried a paper from eyes as do
They are the far-sighted people who are not carrying points, the elderly lady, with dense wavy
To hair poorly touched by a grey hair. Hair have been simply combed on a straight line
Hair parting also are collected on a nape in a negligent wavy bunch. The lady has been dressed
Rather strange - at least the top half of its trunk, (bottom -
Hid a counter) it has been dressed in free, on three it is more than size than
It was required the jeans shirt accurately clasped on all buttons and
Pinned up under a throat the big, ancient brooch-cameo