Marina Judenich

I have opened before you a door …
Sent-Zhenevev-de-Bua

П Р ABOUT L ABOUT Г
П Р About L About Г (a part 2)
П Р About L About Г (a part 3)
П Р About L About Г (a part 4)
П Р About L About Г (a part 5)
Э П AND L ABOUT Г

Э П AND L ABOUT Г

Next day, together with morning mail the secretary puts to me on
Table a thin narrow envelope.
My secretary - that woman, that long time was the secretary
Egor, and then it has been dismissed from work only that has dared to speak with
Me on what has immediately reported on sister vigilant Муся.
Now, she does not hasten to leave an office, as if gathering with forces,
To inform me about something unpleasant.

- Something happens?
- Yes. Have called this morning …
- Муся?
- Yes. The big dose of soporific …
- And the letter?
- Delivered with morning mail
- Well. Contact a family, it is necessary to organise funeral.
- We will bury it?
- Necessarily we will

The woman is silent, but does not leave.
- You do not agree with me?
Again silence, and only I was late now I notice, that from its eyes
Tears flow
- Well, here it still that the such? That - to bury it is not necessary, - in tears? As
To understand?
- To bury, I would not become after everything, - it sobs. - and to crying,
Because you have now told in accuracy, as Egor Igorevich. So it is strange, but
So it is similar …
- Well, here see, means, correctly I speak, if, similar it turns out.
So be engaged in funeral, to us, alas, not to get used …

It leaves, and I unpack an envelope, not testing thus almost
Anything: neither excitements, nor fear, neither a grief, nor fault, even grief.
The first days performed in clinic after operation, I very much was afraid, that
Муся will break what - be image to me in chamber.
Certainly, I knew, that there is a consequence, that its sister
Has disappeared, and Мусю drag on instances.
And, of course, there is the strict is locked on its occurrence in clinic
In general, and in my chamber, in particular.
And all таки I was afraid, because at all did not know, how to me to conduct
Itself with it also what to speak.
To accuse, reproach, abuse, banish it, even easier to be silent
Contemptiously I could not.
But what? That I should tell to it if pardons were not in mine
Heart?
Also what, I could hear from it?
No, my consciousness refused flatly to reflect in it
Direction, and I almost in panic was afraid.
Now the fear is not present, but also anything else is not present.
I attentively listen to myself before to take the letter from
Envelope.
Also I do not find in a shower any feelings.
Then I develop the letter.

”Silly and meanly for my part to ask from you pardons, - writes to me
Муся, - because your pardon even if you by kindness sincere will forgive
Me, will change nothing. It is impossible to measure degree of my treachery, and

П Р About L About Г (a part 5)

- Here you about what! No, it is not necessary, about it I know all. It is called:
Russian character
- In my opinion it is called: character of the suicide
The joke was silly, now Guido somehow has especially sharply felt it,
But then for some reason both of them have absolutely sincerely and cheerfully burst out laughing.
And, breaking own habits, and rules of the circle, a baron a background
Голденберг laughed the same as its Russian interlocutor: it is rolling and is loud.
Now a baron was not surprised.
This guy really chased danger, constantly teasing it and
As if causing on a duel. However - who knows? - It is possible, this call was
It is addressed the death.
Clerks of its department have providently enclosed in a copy folder
The police and medical conclusions: it was, no doubt,
The accident self-confidence was which reason exclusively
The victim. This day to skiers did not recommend to get especially
Highly in mountains, weather spoilt literally on eyes, and lifts gathered
To close. He has had time to jump hardly probable not in last car. It is a pity …
This minute a baron background Голденберг has made opening, повергшее it
In a shock.
Simply so, just in case, it has once again run eyes last
Sheet of a thin folder … Changes are brought more recently … Actually …
Baron has looked at a calendar …. Yes, changes are brought literally on
Days, already in this arrival and, obviously, to a trip in Sent-Morits. It once again
Has looked at date …
On January, 13th, 2000 …
Movements of a baron have lost habitual неспешность, leaves of the policeman
It pulled out the conclusions from a pile of papers almost feverishly.
- That for a devil!
However, it after all could send a fax on the eve of destruction or take advantage
E-mail. Such variants have been provided, for them existed
Even special system of individual passwords. Guido has included the computer:
The car should fix a way and an exact times of transfer of the last
Orders.
Usual procedure of occurrence in the general system of bank: introduction
Own password and an inquiry formulation have occupied from it all a little
Minutes, but an unperturbable baron nervously drummed all this time the thin swarty
Fingers on a table as if this time for it forced to wait the whole eternity.
At last the monitor was delivered of a column of quickly arriving letters and figures -
Guido has literally dropped to the flickering screen
- Well, certainly, E-mail, it has sent E-mail. Anything especial. Since morning
Has sent the order, and during the lunchtime already …. No, lines me побери, not in the morning … But
Then it turns out …
Usually Guido background Голденберг thought promptly, however a situation
Was absolutely not ordinary, and now it needed some seconds,

П Р About L About Г (a part 4)

Mouth proved the and similar the right to the future domination in Europe and in
All world, during their frequent and rather emotional discussions. It was a question,
Certainly, about domination financial. It was self-confident over any measure,
It is arrogant, obstinate, but for all that, it is inexplicable Guido is nice. Obviously,
At it there was that name sometimes negative much
Charm, have defined once for itself a baron. And since then at each convenient
Case gave to itself pleasure to meet, so - with all the heart
To argue with this amusing Russian millionaire, not burdening itself more
Reflexions about the reasons of the strange liking to that.
Their meeting has been planned and in this arrival of the young nouveau riche, however
Before that was going to ski the whole week in Sent-Moritse.
But these plans could not come true.
They have not met, and Russian not откатался the planned week on
Solar lines of a fashionable resort - for the second day of the stay in
Switzerland it was lost, passing one of the most difficult, "black" routes.
Guido's to this news has been sincerely afflicted, but it is not surprised. When it
Has wondered: why? (A habit to analyze all and everything, beginning from
Conditions of the exchange auctions, and finishing own mood during the moment
Awakenings, it has been imparted to a baron by its powerful and wise grandfather also in
The early childhood, as the integral property of any financier respecting
) - The answer has appeared laying on a surface. Once he even has told about it
Nowadays to the late friend:
- To your organism, it seems to me, does not suffice, adrenaline
That at first has burst out laughing in the answer. So: has not burst out laughing, and
Has burst out laughing, it did all is more convex a little: more brightly, more loudly,
More promptly, than Guido have been accustomed.
- Well, is not present! That our Russian organisms develop nowadays with
Surplus so it is adrenaline. A situation, whether you know … - but there and then on a floor -
Word having torn off both a phrase and laughter, has absolutely seriously asked: - And why,
Actually, you have come to such conclusion?
- Very simply. You constantly hunt for danger. Not it - for
You as happens with some. And you - behind it.
- Yes? Curiously. Of what you do this conclusion?
- It is simple. Look behind itself. You, hardly having mastered skis, choose most
Difficult line also you refuse the instructor. You sit down on the most quick
My horse you are interested how to lift it in gallop and you are carried away, like mad.
And then you tell to me, that for the first time sat in a saddle. You go down from mountains
By the car, in a snowfall when in general very few people risks to sit down for a wheel, moreover
Essentially you refuse to put on chains. Then you for that are taken away by the road
Police. I remember. To continue?

П Р About L About Г (a part 3)

Has explained, - it is deep under the earth storehouses of the largest Swiss are placed
Banks
Now Guido seemed, what exactly this day from has resolved to become
The banker.

The reason of alarm and even confusion of a baron consisted in the following.
In the morning on its table there was a thin folder, providently
Delivered by someone from employees
In a folder some documents regulating contained all
Opening of the personal number account of one of big clients of bank,
Means fixing passage under this account and containing orders,
Concerning actions of bank in case of death of the client, if that suddenly
Will come - a standard set of the documents filling thousand of similar folders,
Stored in safes of its department.
He knew this client personally.
First, because it was very much the big client: the sum on it
Personal number to the account in figure with six zero, and this figure for a long time was estimated
Constantly changed, and towards increase
However, Guido background Голденбергу, as to the person entering into higher
The bank management, was known, that for this mister is available still
Some accounts, financial streams on which channels flow both in that, and in
Other party. But it were corporate accounts, that is accounts of the companies,
Registered by this client, and it was absolutely an another matter.
The reason number two consisted that this person came
Russia, and, he means, and an origin of its huge capitals demanded
From bank of especial, most steadfast attention.
At last, there was also the third reason which did not have the slightest relation to
To official duties of a baron background Голденберга. This Russian frankly
Imposed it though was much younger, and belonged to that population
Businessmen who in Russia for some reason named “new Russian”,
Though in Europe, and all over the world for people of a similar grade the name is thought up
Was for a long time and it was fixed to them strongly enough. The name it was "nouveau riche".
The person, suddenly, that is why it is doubtful for a worthy society,
Grown rich, which origin of capitals not clearly, and formation,
Education and manners, as a rule, leave much to be desired. Exceptions from
This rule, met only on pages of novels of mister Duma, but them
Baron did not read background Голденеберг even in the childhood: the grandfather, on education to which
Young baron has been given, was the severe pragmatist, and did not see the reasons
To form consciousness of the grandson in other key. In twelve years Guido already
Preferred Драйзера, and in fifteen not without interest studied Marx.
This Russian was absolutely alien to a circle, which Guido since the childhood considered
To the, moreover, it was aggressively alien to this circle, because with foam at

П Р About L About Г (a part 2)

Department of private contributions. This post as is impossible more corresponded
To position of a family of a baron in world financial hierarchy, Guido, as
It is impossible more corresponded to this post. At least, at the given stage
The career, obligatory for men of its circle, as Eton or Oxford,
Eight horses for поло and the dozen suits sewed in "gold" street in
London.
Actually, it was very much and very uneasy. Under the steadfast
Switzerland dangerously balanced with attention of all world on border possible and
Admissible placing in questions and safety of private capitals, therefore
The bank should show miracles of foresight and use
Filigree financial technologies.
The complicated questions, concerning private investors, were resolved in
Office of a baron background Голденберга, and it was a guarantee for one and
Caution for others, under a condition, certainly, that to visitors was
It is known ”Who is Who” on the European financial machinations. However, among
Visitors of this office people ignorant met extremely seldom.
Here a young baron could accept people, a meeting with which
Under any other circumstances it would be not possible simply by definition.
For financial secrets were at crowned persons, equally, as well as at
The characters causing steadfast attention of criminal police. Problems and
That, and others happened sometimes are surprisingly similar.
Not once or twice the owner of this office, having called to the aid all the
Congenital charm, has been compelled to set questions, to answer on which it
To visitors happened uneasy. And crimson stains foully appeared through
Swarty skin on the thoroughbred person of the Arabian prince. And deadly pallor,
Having overcome a layer of skilfully imposed cosmetics, filled in cheeks of the spouse
The prime minister of the country repeatedly surpassing its native Switzerland, on
To extreme measure, territorially.
And here now this feeling … Full confusion and confusion …
Guido has again looked at the azure sky. It was such affable, that
It has not remained sitting in the solemn armchair and easily having risen because of a table,
Has crossed an office, having stopped near huge, in all wall of a window. Below,
The bright: humpbacked and flat, roofs of old Zurich lasted.
Guido loved this city.
Once, it is a lot of years back, its grandfather, a baron background Голденберг, carried it
To feed with cakes in an old confectioner's shop on привокзальной the areas. Once on
To road to the car, the grandfather has suddenly slowed down and without that a slow step, and
Impressively having knocked with a heavy shod tip of a massive cane on
брусчатой a roadway, has solemnly uttered: “Under these stones, my boy,
All gold of the world disappears almost. - and, having met a wondering sight of the grandson,

П Р ABOUT L ABOUT Г

On January, 13th, 2000 in Switzerland, on one of ski lines near
Sent-Moritsa, the Russian tourist was lost. The history was, of course, sad, but
Absolutely usual for these places. Each mountain-skiing season here carries away with
Itself, as a rule, some human lives. Throughout many years
This mournful statistics remains invariable. And people, again and again coming
Here, becoming on skis and leaving on a route, like silently would agree
With that mountains and this time, take the terrible tribute. Eventually,
The majority searches here it: one of the sharpest pleasures
Accessible to mankind - pleasures by fear. Special, and consequently accessible in
To all completeness, only selected, its charm, just also consists in
Volume, that again and again, of own will and without any necessity
To converge in an impudent duel with the death and close to look in it
Bottomless, bewitching emptiness of eternity of an eye-socket.

Guido background Голденберг, a young Swiss baron, the successor of the solid
The conditions, the known playboy favourite in very narrow and very closed
To circle, suddenly, it is absolutely unexpected for itself, and for the first time for forty, without
Small, years; has felt full confusion adjoining on horror.
The sensation was so unusual, how much unpleasant and
The disturbing. Listening to that was created with it these minutes, Guido,
Has decided, that today will call the psychoanalyst in the evening
Also will discuss a problem. However, it has there and then doubted correctness of the such
Decisions. Left very much on - American. Yankees and to a step cannot step without
Long abstruse consultations of the psychoanalysts - Guido's this syndrome
Observed at some clients. Then it had possibility to estimate
Accounts which exposed attentive and always ready to the long
Consultations experts. Having recollected accounts, he has definitively solved, what not
Will be to consult to anybody. As the sensation was though and extremely
Unpleasant, but completely not groundless.
In a bright transparent azure of the sky over Zurich it is dazzling the white shone
The winter sun. Unfortunately, anything more, not leaving the armchair a baron
Could not see: windows of its spacious office located on twelfth
Floor imperceptible it is dark - a brown building, with the big abundance of glass on
Facade left on roofs of buildings more low, older building, lasting
Along one of the central streets of Zurich - Банхофштрассе. The such
In the image, it is convenient - in the city centre and it is imperceptible, not involving the idle
Attention of passers-by, one of the most well-known first class settled down
The Swiss banks.
Baron background Голденберг here had some years honour to head in it

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